To Dr. Mary Johnson

What I am about to do is extremely unwise. I cannot email Dr. Mary Johnson for fear of upsetting her further. I have banned her here and she has banned me there. And yet, I cannot continue watching the poor thing suffer wondering what I might do next.

Initially, I thought to ignore her blog, but things are getting so out of whack over there that I feel I must comment.

I will not be contacting any medical board or anybody else regarding Dr. Mary Johnson, even though I am very concerned for her mental well being. The emails I sent are hers to divulge should she choose. I discussed some matters I would not want made public to protect her.

Regarding this doctor who is making diagnoses about me from afar, he is an idiot. Everything looks like a nail to a hammer.

Mary, if it will give you peace to have me charged with cyberstalking, then by all means do it. I stupidly thought I could make you recognize the potential consequences of your long history of personal attacks.

Finally, I want only one thing for you tonight and that is a good night’s sleep. Feel safe in your home and among your friends.

Regardless of how you feel about us, many of us are concerned about you and want only what is in your best interest.

I post this now with the full knowledge it may set off yet another round of paranoid fantasy abetted by foolish mental health professionals who, instead of engaging in parlor tricks concerning me and heightening your anxiety, should be attempting to soothe the frayed nerves of their supposed friend.

Mary, say the word and I will delete this post. In fact, I am prepared to do anything you desire to give you peace.

Additionally, it will hurt you to read this, but I have rarely read the contents of your blog. Frankly, I found it a waste of time. The point is I am not aware of the things you say I know. Even if I did I would not use them against you.

It occurs to me that in the last couple of years we’ve been through a lot together. Recently, you’ve had a lot of help, even from me, convincing yourself that I am now a monster. But the math doesn’t work. I’m still the same guy who adores his Wife, spoils his cats and makes great fun of the opposition.

Making peace with Ed and Roch is not a failing. It is a virtue. I tried very hard to build a bridge between you. I like it here, warts and all. I always have, except for brief periods of despair. Despite my frequent skepticism, things are good here and we try very hard to make them better.

Let the dark clouds part. Let tomorrow be a better day. You deserve it. It’s as simple as closing your eyes and saying “So be it.”

As to the notion that I’ve been co-opted or beaten down by Ed and Roch, allow me to explain a few things. The Wife and I have been LGBT friendly, pro-choice Republicans ever since we can remember and long before we met. If you don’t like my politics, don’t blame it on them. And beware those who despise my politics and are currently whispering in your ear. You are being played and not by me.

11-15-09 14:00: I’ve installed moderation on this blog. Everyone is welcome to comment if they behave. Even if they don’t and its a good comment, I’ll approve it. One condition: I want to see valid email addresses.

It took me less than thirty seconds to Google Mary’s home address Friday night. She has attacked the same people day after day for years at her place. These people have children and relatives. It’s not hard to believe someone might get tired of the attacks and decide to do something about it. For her to leave her address so available and conduct herself in such a fashion is not only crazy; it’s stupid.

19:30: Speaking of stupid, so apparently was this post. Oh well. I feel better for having tried. Hatred is something to cling to when there is nothing better, I suppose.